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Monday, December 13, 2004

The Evil of ancient times has returned: Cedar.

I find myself alsmost wishing this morning that I had the flu. Instead, I have Cedar Fever. Although fever is actually conspicuously absent, Cedar Fever is the scourge of South Texas from December through March or so. Having had the flu last year at this time, I almost -- almost -- prefer it's high-intensity short duration.

Itchy eyes, runny nose, sore throat, 2 hours of sleep last night spend fighting off a "drowning in snot" feeling. Yes, it's close enough to be a close cousin of the flu. Cedar Fever shrugs off Allegra-D like it was mere mist. Saturday I was fine. Sunday, all the gates of Hell opened to welcome me home for a few months.

You know I am going to turn this into an impromptu belief extraction session. For variety, I will make it more narrative and hopefully fun. Despite the fact I feel possessed, I will do what I can to stay positive and less soul-crushingingly malevolent. I'll also make it short.

Cedar is evil. Oh wait, that's a fact not a belief. lol

"I feel miserable from Cedar allergies."
Misery loves company -- there's bunches of us suffering right now, so there's got to be a belief in mass creation of suffering. It's no coincidence this time of year is about suffering: there's the holidays, shopping, Christmas, and other suffering factors. Really, though, there must be something about this time of year that makes us suffer. So, why, from a belief standpoint would I want to inflict allergies on myself.

At this point it's probably important to note that this reality creation stuff focuses on the premise that belief, imagination, and thoughts form emotions and reality. There's entire books written about this and I recommend you check them out for more information. It'll make your life a boatload better. Start with "The Nature of Personal Reality" by Jane Roberts.

So, to create something that makes you feel bad and want to be antisocial. I think this is about rebellion and also joining a group creation. Those of us who get sick -- or, me at least -- are those who need a break from something. I worked my fat little behind off all this year and have such a drive to work, work, work, work, work, that I apparently create a need for my body to shut down. The seasonal allergy thing is a way I know it will happen each year.

Think about it this way: in the grand scheme of a workaholic's life, what way can I guarantee that I work relentlessly all year but give myself a mandatory down time I won't give myself voluntarily? Why, some kind of repeatable yet harmless sickness. This makes sense to me. I never rest. I never take it easy. Except when I am sick, or I force myself into vacation out of sheer exhaustion (like I did in November).

So, how can I counteract this plague of plagues? How to stop the evil that is Cedar? Changing beliefs. I can turn it around and say, "It's ok to relax. Take a break, Friedman." And, then, actually do it. That may have the effect of relaxing the belief rigidity, and allow me to breathe better and not feel so evil. Perhaps I'll take one of my leftover vacation days next week -- curl up on the couch with a good book (I am reading the aforementioned guidebook, NPR), pet the cat and snooze the day away in silent contemplation of all that is decent in the world. If I agree to it and do it right, I may not have a single sniffle.

Sounds like a plan. Another belief accepted.


Teej said...

Amen. Maybe we're on a mid-30's parallel journey of sorts, my friend. Since September of this year, I have been working on being flexible (could work-aholic be a Leo thing? Seems weird for big cats!) Also, I recommend going to an introduction to the Landmark Forum - the education I got from a weekend with Landmark was amazing re: how I am responsible for creating my life (events happen, but it is my emotional interpretation that creates so much of the suffering)! I think you might like it, too.

Anonymous said...

Hmm. Allergies and beliefs. When I was working in a doctor's office I was surrounded by patients who had a MAJOR problem with allergies in Santa Fe. I'd never experienced anything prior to that, but sure enough, soon after I started to get allergy attacks too. Kinda like when I worked for a chiropractor I started to have back problems and when I worked for an oral surgeon I started to have problems with my wisdom teeth. I think there is something in what you say about the misery loves company thing. (I think it's probably better for me to stay out of the medical profession altogether!)

I agree with the thing too about perhaps you're creating something that is forcing you to take a break. Except I usually think of it as "my body" is telling me to slow down, rather than I am actually creating it. Maybe what I've created is a body that can talk to me.

Anyway, I don't get allergies anymore. And since I work in real estate now, I'm hoping that what I'll get "infected" with next is a house. ;)